Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Fear

I have not been blogging much because I have been out of commission so to speak. I had posted a while back about having trouble with my left knee while running, as it turns out I have needed to have knee surgery. When I went back for my post op visit, I was told that I should not run any more, so I have been very sad and trying to deal with the loss of some of my goals and personal identity. How can I not run? It’s as much a part of my life as breathing, as brushing my teeth everyday. It’s unimaginable to have this taken away, so I’m trying my best to not give up hope. As I was recovering I started to work on a sculpt of a little girl dressed in a bumble bee costume, I will post pictures soon and put her up on eBay. There is a quote from the founder of Mary Kay cosmetics. She said

“Aerodynamically, the bumble bee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumble bee doesn't know it so it goes on flying anyway”. Mary Kay Ash

I realize that fear is something that always holds me back I think it is the same for many of us. Fear that we will somehow not make our goals, fear that things I made or do will somehow be unacceptable. We listen to others and let that fear take over instead of listening to our hearts. I don’t know if I will every accomplish all the goals I have set out for myself. But I’m hoping I can at least not let fear hold me back from trying.

1 comment:

william Metcalf said...

Just imagine what you could accomplish if you could go back in time and talk yourself at 25 years old! You're so much wiser and knowledgeable even now than you were ten years ago, which is about how far back I can remember without it going a bit fuzzy. Emily sometimes try to think to herself, what will the 45 year old me think about this decision? And I think the answer a lot of the time will be to ignore her fears!