It has been a long time since I have worked my creative muscles. I may make time to work out and run, but when it comes to my creativity I am sorely lacking and I can feel how much my creative muscles have atrophied. But as of a few weeks ago I signed up to an open studio type class with Craig Fisher. So far I have quite enjoyed my experiences in the studio with him. He is a good sculptor and also a very intelligent man.
I thought I would start small and see how things go, so I started making a door knocker. During a trip to Europe a few years back I really enjoyed seeing all the ornate door knockers. It is something you don’t see much here in the US. I don’t know if it will turn out well enough for me to spend the money to mold and cast it. I will cross that bridge when I am finished.
For now I am focusing on the positive things in my life. I have my health. All my children, grandchildren and the spouses of my children are healthy. They all seem to be in very good places in the lives and I am so happy to see their growth. It continues to amaze me at the personalities and the uniqueness of my family. It always feels my heart to see them, they are all amazing people.
I am enjoying my independence more every day. You would think that it would be an instantaneous thing to love independence, but for me it has been a bit of a struggle. I have been with someone, weather it was my sibling or my spouse at the time for my entire life. At 51 to find I completely liberated and at times it has been scary. But more and more I enjoy the fact that my life is my own, my choices are my own, and how I choose to live my life is completely up to me. Stepping into fear is not easy, but it is starting to be rewarding.
Self-acceptance is something that I choose every morning. Like brushing my teeth or choosing my outfit for the day it is a habit that I hope will soon be as easy as the two comparisons.